Misfortune Tests the Sincerity of Friends

“The Bear and The Travelers.”

1. One day, two travelers were on the road together, when a bear suddenly appeared on the scene.
2. Before the bear noticed them, one man made for a tree at the side of the road, and climbed up into the branches and hid there.
3. The other was not so nimble as his companion; and, because he could not escape, he threw himself on the ground and pretended to be dead.
4. The bear came up and sniffed all around him, but the man kept perfectly still and held his breath; for they say that a bear will not touch a dead body.
5. The bear took him for a corpse, and went away.
6. When the coast was clear, the traveler in the tree came down, and asked the other what it was the bear had whispered to him when he put his mouth to his ear.
7. The other replied, “He told me never again travel with a friend who deserts you at the first sign of danger.”
8. The moral of the story is - misfortune tests the sincerity of friendship.

Lies Exposed

Something I learned after I came down ill a few years ago is that illness really tests the sincerity of friends.
A few years ago I started to have health problems, and a few people in my inner circle, people that I had trusted, people who did not deserve the luxory of my trust, began lying about me, and saying things behind my back. These people think I do not know, but I know, and I have known for some time.

Just to clarify, trying to tarnish someone's reputation because you do not agree with their religious beliefs is the uttermost form of low. Honorable people step away when they do not agree with your faith, and cannot reconcile it with their own. Despicable people call you crazy, or radical for what you believe. For once, and for all, I am saying, right here, and right now. I believe what I believe. If you cannot accept me, don't let the door hit you in the rear on the way out of my life. I won't miss the friendship we never really had in the first place.

Have you ever had a love hate relationship with someone? This person is a poison to your system? This person eats away at your mind heart and soul, and yet, you cannot get enough? I always wondered why crushing on someone like people do is so damn easy. Love and hate really are two sides of the same coin. I have never hated anyone in my life more than the people I let love me.

The people who betray your trust hurt you a lot more than people you know you cannot trust from the start. The people who have your heart hurt you more than the people who have your wrath. Its a bitter irony, don't you think, that it works this way?

I meant it

"I meant it when I said, I want to get well." Ariel Bloomer, Icon for Hire.

How many of you out there get fed up with people who give themselves pity parties after awhile?

You know the type. This person is in constantly compares their emotional battle scars with everyone.

These people suck the life out of you without even trying, but only if you let them. Furthermore, sometimes these people even demand you bring a dirty laundry list to the table, and if you are unwilling to play that game then you aren't worthy to associate with them.

Well ladies and gents, I have officially had enough of that shit. If this is the way you  choose to live your life, understand that I will not be trading horror stories and battle wounds with you. If this is one of your pastimes then you should realize how much more you should be getting out of life. 

Let me sum up everything that I am trying to say to you all two easy to understand sentences:

I meant it when I said, I want to get well. Are the rest of you so content, stay when you are but it hurts like hell.

If you are one of the people waiting alone back there 'back there, I have one more thing to say to you.

I'm extending you an invitation to those of you left behind. You can chose to accept this invitation, or to ignore it. Ultimately, the choice is up to you.

Come on, dry your eyes, meet me on the other side
Run as fast as you can and we'll make it out alive
We know better now, we don't have to live like this
Go tell them all we don't have to live like this

Look at today as a new day, and a fresh start. Every day brings new hope, and something to be grateful for. Life really is ten percent what happens to you and 90 percent your reaction to it.

Good Morning!

Do you ever wake up feeling so refreshed and vibrant that you could take on the world? Its been that kind of day for me. Yesterday I was just blah, if you know what I mean, until after I woke from my evening nap. As some of you may or may not know, I suffer from narcolepsy and excessive somnolence disorder. I have good days and bad days with it. I pretty much have to work a couple short naps into my schedule every day in order to function and that is a given.

I have been working a little bit each day on my new website: http://katsden.angelfire.com/
for a bit over a week now. It's coming along famously, and I am proud of the coding I have learned. I knew some before, but I have wanted to increase that knowledge for awhile.

Anyway it's off to face another day. It's beautiful out, I may just work in a walk and enjoy the start of Spring here.

It's Finally Friday!

I survived a long, exasperating week. It was one of those weeks where I was stretched so thin if I had been pancake batter it would have gone through the holes in a strainer. I am happy to finally be at the end of the week, and to have some time for myself to relax and just do some of the things that make me happy.

We are always undergoing change in this life, but sometimes we have periods of transition more profound then others. I have really been going through a period like this over the past few weeks. As I have been more true to myself, I have learned some others are threatened by my authenticity. If I could speak to each and every one of them, I would say: "Your fear does not threaten my truth."