The focus is not on changing your mind, but on changing me.

Its 10-3-2014. I have decided that today is the last day I am posting to this particular blog.

I have decided that I want to leave certain parts of my past behind me, and that includes this blog.

Much of this blog was inspired by a bad incident with one of my best friends, and the pain that it caused me.

Painful words were exchanged on both sides. I apologized for my end of it. I honestly do not believe this other person is mature enough to do the same. Maybe I will find out I am wrong and some day she will surprise me. Maybe not, but now I have reached the point where frankly, I do not care.

Its in the past, and I am letting it go.

The Best Thing

This one is going to be short, because its a moment you have to feel and experience, its not easy to put into words.  So, for me, this song has religious implications, and its not all about relationships. Listen to it, and think of Darren Hayes as a religious follower, and that he is singing about God, not a lover. It's just a great few minutes here.

Lessons

It has been a strikingly cool May so far, and the forecasts all call for a cooler than normal summer. I am not complaining one bit. I have drawn closer to nature during this time, marveled at everything in Creation, and enjoyed my family and my few close friends.

I am looking forward to a beautiful summer, and I hope to get a lot of work done around the house and to help with my sisters kids. Children see things so simply. It doesn't take much for them to supply be filled to the brim with joy, and they have such a raw innocence. I always find time around children to be life giving.

Misfortune Tests the Sincerity of Friends

“The Bear and The Travelers.”

1. One day, two travelers were on the road together, when a bear suddenly appeared on the scene.
2. Before the bear noticed them, one man made for a tree at the side of the road, and climbed up into the branches and hid there.
3. The other was not so nimble as his companion; and, because he could not escape, he threw himself on the ground and pretended to be dead.
4. The bear came up and sniffed all around him, but the man kept perfectly still and held his breath; for they say that a bear will not touch a dead body.
5. The bear took him for a corpse, and went away.
6. When the coast was clear, the traveler in the tree came down, and asked the other what it was the bear had whispered to him when he put his mouth to his ear.
7. The other replied, “He told me never again travel with a friend who deserts you at the first sign of danger.”
8. The moral of the story is - misfortune tests the sincerity of friendship.

Lies Exposed

Something I learned after I came down ill a few years ago is that illness really tests the sincerity of friends.
A few years ago I started to have health problems, and a few people in my inner circle, people that I had trusted, people who did not deserve the luxory of my trust, began lying about me, and saying things behind my back. These people think I do not know, but I know, and I have known for some time.

Just to clarify, trying to tarnish someone's reputation because you do not agree with their religious beliefs is the uttermost form of low. Honorable people step away when they do not agree with your faith, and cannot reconcile it with their own. Despicable people call you crazy, or radical for what you believe. For once, and for all, I am saying, right here, and right now. I believe what I believe. If you cannot accept me, don't let the door hit you in the rear on the way out of my life. I won't miss the friendship we never really had in the first place.

Have you ever had a love hate relationship with someone? This person is a poison to your system? This person eats away at your mind heart and soul, and yet, you cannot get enough? I always wondered why crushing on someone like people do is so damn easy. Love and hate really are two sides of the same coin. I have never hated anyone in my life more than the people I let love me.

The people who betray your trust hurt you a lot more than people you know you cannot trust from the start. The people who have your heart hurt you more than the people who have your wrath. Its a bitter irony, don't you think, that it works this way?